urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:princesssbb -im your sunshine. princess/superbaby 2008-10-30T02:14:41Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:princesssbb:6112 2008-10-30T02:14:41Z 2008-10-30T02:14:41Z <div style="text-align: center"><span style="color: #800080"><strong><br />im back to blogger, most of the time.<br />princessupbaby*<br /><br />&lt;3</strong></span></div> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:princesssbb:5771 2008-06-29T06:24:53Z 2008-06-29T06:24:53Z another friend, samuel wee, passed away on friday afternoon. i dont really want to talk about it right now. maybe in days to come. it shocked me. <br /><br /><br /><em>so you said you wana wake up your idea, <br />so you said sorry aint enough to close my disappointment,</em> <br /><em>so you said you wana get back a life,</em> <br /><em>so you said im still your bff,</em> <br /><em>BUT YET all you ever ever ever do to me is to HIDE BEHIND THE SCREEN &amp; blog.</em> <br /><em></em><br /><em>did i change my handphone number? <br />im NOT going to sms/call/date you/make the first move.</em> <br /><em></em><br /><em>bff? my foot.</em> <br /><em><br /></em><em></em><br /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:princesssbb:5507 2008-06-09T10:00:19Z 2008-06-09T10:00:19Z it was an awesome weekend at JB's palms resort.! (more ppictures coming up i think!)<br />more on that later.<br /><br />this entry's aim is to let off some steam.<br /><br />it was a surprise to hear from you on the night of boon's passing on. hearing your voice on the other end after so long was warm.. that night when i was in bed i thought abt the afternoons' practices with the team, i thought abt the days in class with xiaoen & chuluan, i thought abt the recesss-es we sat toghther eating duck noodle, i thought abt that day in class when you were laughing too loud over olivia's joke & you were asked to stand in fornt of the class, then mr goh asked you to dump rubbish! you might not remember all these, all these seem so long ago yes? but it always brought a smile to my face. yet as i think back & type this, all im left are tears, disappointment & bitterness.<br />when did our friendship go worng?<br />why did it go worng?<br />we survived bad hair days, lousy matches, lost matches, unfair umpires, aching bodies, bad relationships, failed relationship, so why aint we close anymore? theres no more bad hair days, lousy matches, lost matches, unfair umpires, aching bodies, bad relationships, failed relationship, in fact stable love with our each boyfriend. so why why why? was it heavy workload? was it time? was it new-er friends?<br />looking thru your blog, you have close girl pals, it make me happy to know that after me, xiaoen, chuluan, you have people to talk to. i know you find it hard to open up.. but it sadden me to know that our friendship is no longer when we were younger.<br />looking at xiaoen & chuluan, it seem that we are in their shoes too. broken friendships. just so like us now.<br />we live 30 mins away only, yet we never seem to catch up.<br />it hurts for me to say this, but you have disappoint me like no others. i have been trying to date you out, yet at the very last minute, you went MIA. put yourself in my shoes.. think for me please. why do i try so hard? because i treasure you, thats why. but you..? i guess i was never the best friends you wanted. xiaoen is the one you rather meet up with.<br />you know, i didnt went for nyp's netball trial was because, i dont want play any games as a WA or any position without you. but i guess everything is too late already.<br />i guess our friendship is like that now..<br /><br />thanks you for the secondary school days. thanks you for letting me fall in love with netball all over again.<br /><br />*<br />alright, the time is 5.59pm, time to pack up & to meet boo!<br />dinner will be rocking! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:princesssbb:5325 2008-05-22T14:30:31Z 2008-05-22T15:53:46Z 22nd may 2008<br /><br />we walked with boon for the last time today.<br /><br />reached at about 8am. went in to see boon. he seemed to appear more like sleeping today.. looking at him, thinking that this is the last day i can see him already..<br /><br />everytime before i go in & see his body, i stare long at his photo.. when i see his body, did you know the differences? one with a cheerful smile, & thats boon's smile.. nobody has the smile.. but his body.. cold & emotionaless.. thats something nobody has seen that look before..<br /><br />everybody came & prayed for him..<br /><br />boon, do you know? do you like the rose i placed on your coffin? did you see us today for the last time?<br /><br />i broke down when i see him for the last time.. everybody just cried.. even wilfred looked at boon for the last time.. <br /><br />we were told to turn behind while they prepare the van. then jeff, weehong, zhiyong, jeremy, waychorng, jackson & yansheng went to lift his coffin to the van.. did boon know?<br /><br />boon's family was so sad. his mother still cant believe it..<br />qiuli sat there crying when i went.. she asked me to eat breakfast. i was told that she want burn a photo of boon & her, but they disallow as she is in the picture..<br /><br />as a friend, i feel sad & cried everytime boon creep into my mind.. i cant imagine qiuli & his family's pains.. i can imagine what if..<br /><br />we went to pray for the last time before boon is cremated.. boon.. thats really the last time we can ever see him already.. his basketball shoes, his jeans, his shirt..<br /><br />after his body was pushed into the huge oven, everybody called out to him.. cry.. thats was the last look.. the very very last look of toh boon keong..<br />after that, we all sat at the kerb.. every one of us was silent, some tearing, some singing your songs.. we didnt comfort anyone around us.. i guess we do need our own space to remember boon by..<br /><br />today is the final ending already.. cheer up guys, boon dont want see us being this way..<br /><br />boon.. we will all miss you.. you will always be in our fond memories, friends forever.. boon.. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:princesssbb:4967 2008-05-21T16:35:17Z 2008-05-22T15:48:33Z 21st may 2008<br /><br />this morning, i dreamt about boon..<br /><em></em><br /><em>as a class, we said to go taka.. we were still the same, talking &amp; joking around. only you, sitting alone, looking indifferences.. you walked past me, &amp; i asked you,"boon! are you going taka with us?"</em><br /><em>"no, i cant go with you all." you answered.</em><br /><em>"why?" i asked.</em><br /><em>you walked away, without answering me.</em><br /><em></em><br /><em>then we were all at the bustop, wanting to go up the bus, you went up the bus &amp; the doors closed. then you turned around &amp; told me, "i forget to buy my facial wash! can help me buy?"</em><br /><em>"yes. can! which type you want?"</em><br /><em></em><br />i woke up, remembering the dream.. somehow, in my memories, you said you wanted to listen to jay's 千里之外.<br />i remembered you wanted 2 facial washes.. biore..<br /><br />after work, i went to find your facial wash, gasbty. cos qiuli told pikmun you used that..<br /><br />when boo &amp; i reached, we went to gave them to your mum &amp; dad. they places the facial washes with your toothbrush, toothpaste, basin.. i saw your dustcoat on your pile of books.<br />sorry, we decided not to return you the basketball, because we want to have something to remember you by. next time when the guys play basketball, they can feel that you are still with us..<br /><br />boon, tonight, visit your parents in their dreams can you?<br />how can you only come into my dream but not them..<br />just now your mummy asked me about the dream, &amp; her eyes were with tears.. jackson asked if she would be sad to know that you come to my dream but not hers. i dontknow how to answer..<br /><br />boon, if you can hear me, please tell them not to be so sad..<br /><br />during dinner, boo &amp; i were talking about you.. i cried again, when boo said you sat opp him in the library.. he remembered you, what you said, what you did.. he was about to cry too.<br />on the way back, i told him about you.. the random stuffs.. fresh tears came..<br /><br /><br /><lj-embed id="2" /><br /><br />千里之外--周杰伦 费玉清<br /><br />屋檐如悬崖<br />风铃如沧海<br />我等燕归来<br />时间被安排<br />演一场意外<br />你悄然走开<br />故事在城外<br />浓雾散不开<br />看不清对白<br />你听不出来<br />风声不存在<br />是我在感慨<br />梦醒来<br />是谁在窗台<br />把结局打开<br />那薄如蝉翼的未来<br />经不起谁来拆<br />我送你离开<br />千里之外<br />你无声黑白<br />沉默年代<br />或许不该<br />太遥远的相爱<br />我送你离开<br />天涯之外<br />你是否还在<br />琴声何来<br />生死难猜<br />用一生<br />去等待<br />闻泪声入林<br />寻梨花白<br />只得一行青苔<br />天在山之外<br />雨落花台<br />我两鬓斑白<br />闻泪声入林<br />寻梨花白<br />只得一行青苔<br />天在山之外<br />雨落花台<br />我等你来<br />一身琉璃白<br />透明著尘埃<br />你无瑕的爱<br />你从雨中来<br />诗化了悲哀<br />我淋湿现在<br />芙蓉水面采<br />船行影犹在<br />你却不回来<br />被岁月覆盖<br />你说的花开<br />过去成空白<br />梦醒来<br />是谁在窗台<br />把结局打开<br />那薄如蝉翼的未来<br />经不起谁来拆<br />我送你离开<br />千里之外<br />你无声黑白<br />沉默年代<br />或许不该<br />太遥远的相爱<br />我送你离开<br />天涯之外<br />你是否还在<br />琴声何来<br />生死难猜<br />用一生<br />去等待 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:princesssbb:4654 2008-05-20T13:51:12Z 2008-05-22T15:10:33Z 20th may 2008<br /><br />bad news came to me at about 11.30am. wee hong ask me if i know the news. no, i said. then came his call. "boonkeong passed away.." the first thing was i said was , "really anot?" it was..the first person i told was boo..<br />&amp; then penny..<br />why.. boon keong, what exactly happened to you on the expressway? i still saw you that day when i went back nyp for lunch, you still waved to me, do you remember?<br />your 19th birthday was only 3 days ago, happy belated birthday boon..<br />all i saw today was the crying of you mum, brother, sister, brotherinlaw, sisinlaw..your gf.. penny.. relatives &amp; friends.. did you heard what your mum say? how can you leave her alone just like that..? she was calling out to you..<br />a body, just a body.. but dont worry, you still look like jay..<br /><br />today we sang a last song to you.. did you hear us? we choose the jay song you love.. we can never hear you anymore.. no longer hear your snoring in class anymore..<br /><br />i dontknow what else to say to you..<br /><br />朋友<br />演唱:周华健<br />这些年一个人<br />风也过雨也走<br />有过泪有过错<br />还记得坚持甚麽<br />真爱过才会懂<br />会寂寞会回首<br />终有梦终有你在心中<br />朋友一生一起走<br />那些日子不再有<br />一句话一辈子<br />一生情一杯酒<br />朋友不曾孤单过<br />一声朋友你会懂<br />还有伤还有痛<br />还要走还有我<br /><br />this is the only song i can remember you with..<br /><br />takecare boon keong..<br /><br />till the next time i see you, take good care.<br /><br /><lj-embed id="1" /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:princesssbb:4488 2008-05-19T10:19:30Z 2008-05-19T10:19:30Z <p>june's cleo is out &amp; the theme for june is "love your body."<br /><br />somehow the topic hit my head, because im sick of ______ saying things like,"im too shy to meet anybody else other than my bf." give me a break, we had been friends since secondary one, &amp; you think i will judge you because of your size? i dont care if you are a size 8 or 14, you are still my friends.<br /><br />ook at the size 4 (which is 0), you think they are pretty? how many girls you know is THAT small size. okay, there might be, so?<br /><br />i dont understand why girls diet?!<br />i cant live without food, i can assure you.<br /><br />you might think im saying the above because im the skinny one. hell, no.<br />im on the heavier side of the weighting scale.<br /><br />i had my share of diet, i admit, but not more than 2 days. <br />i had guys telling me,be it secondary or in poly, "what happened to you? you are getting FAT!" with a disguested look. or "wha, you so short, better lose half your weight larhs, later you look like a ball."<br />i also had a bitch who blog about my weight, saying ugly things like my top is far too small for my ahem, blah blah. so she think that that makes her look beauty? no way, she sound like one insecure bitch who only know how to stay behind the computer screen &amp; blog abt my life. why? just because she is jealous of i dontknow what.<br />hey! who are you to tell me that im fat? im happy with the way i am. i looked into the mirror &amp; i see nothing that im unhappy with. <br />flabby arms? check.<br />flat abs? no way, it is like a blown up ballon.<br />fat thighs? yes yes!<br />but SO WHAT? is it my body!<br /><br />i would like to think that im curvy, not fat okay? muahahah. ok laugh at me.<br /><br />whats important in life isnt the number on the scale, if your revoles around your weight, then let me tell you, WAKE UP YOUR STUPID IDEA.<br /><br />on a side note, can someone tell me why sometimes my entry cant be seen, i have to click on leave a comment (or something like that) to see the entry?</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:princesssbb:4040 2008-03-08T12:35:16Z 2008-03-08T12:35:16Z attachment is not as bad as i thought. im trying to learn as much as i can. im going to make my time worthwhile. i even forgo my breaks, (which my fellow IAs thought was a stupid idea.)<br /><br />tomorrow will be a fab day! (: urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:princesssbb:3352 2008-02-26T11:17:32Z 2008-02-26T11:24:58Z <p>how can anybody be so cruel?</p><p><u>if you cant stand blood &amp; the helplessness towards the animals in the video, please dont watch the video</u>. <strong>but please click on the link &amp; learn how we can stop this "supply on demand" chain</strong>. each living thing has a living right, please dont wear anything dead on your body.<br /><br />i vomited after after the video, i wasnt even half way thru the video..<br /><br /><a href="http://www.furisdead.com/feat/ChineseFurFarms/">http://www.furisdead.com/feat/ChineseFurFarms/</a><br /><br />please have a heart.<br />❤</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:princesssbb:3151 2008-02-26T09:27:01Z 2008-02-26T09:27:01Z it's such a chore to update both blog &amp; eljay. ): urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:princesssbb:2949 2008-02-24T07:51:52Z 2008-02-24T07:51:52Z ELJAY ate up my post!!!<br /><br />have not been posting over here eversince i dontknow when. i will try my best to update both my blgo &amp; this alright! meanwhile, i'll be a chao mugger &amp; study for my last paper!!! tomorrow, just endure till tmr.. (&amp; then the horrors of attactment will begin..) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:princesssbb:2194 2007-10-11T07:18:57Z 2007-10-11T07:18:57Z moved house, still in the midst of unpacking. (:<br />looking to my housewarming right now!